Are girls that mysterious like what the Chinese say "women's heart are like the needle under the sea."?
What will you think if a girl suddenly make you feel that she is unhappy and when you ask her what happen and she just say don't know? As for me, I will feel nervous and worry about it. I want to make her become happy again just like before but I really don't know where can I start to find out what is the source of the problem. Although I have already try hard but what I can feel is I can't even make her laugh and even I feel that I make the situation worst. I really want to help her but now I feel helpless. I don't know where the problem come from, what cause the problem. In the end, I and her are in the cold war now, I want to help her but what I get is just negative message that refuse me to help her. This is the longest cold war between I and her ever been. Haiz
I really hope that she can tell me what is actually happen and can become happy again. Wish you can enjoy your university life in KL.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Friday, December 25, 2009
Christmas @ 2009
This year Christmas is just like normal days.
I still like a bird in a cage. Do not have the freedom to go anywhere I like. The only right I have is can sit in front of laptop for the whole day. Today (25 Dec 2009) I stay at home for whole day and this is the method I celebrate Christmas in year 2009 although I do not desire this kind of celebration. I have no choice at all, at home although I feel warm just like other people say home sweet home but the price is to sacrifice your freedom. At home, whenever I want to go also need permission from my parents, then only I can go. Wherever the place I want to go, my parents will say that it is too dangerous if I drive, but in front of other people, they will just say that I don't dare to drive even though I already have my driving license.
In this Christmas I also realize something about myself. I know the reason that make me have low self-esteem is because I am over protected and also keep getting negative message. I can say that until now that I am 19 years old. I haven't ride roller coaster before, not even once because of my parents. They will just deny my request. However, I can now starting to regain my self-esteem when I living with my house mate when studying university. It can force me to face my problem and overcome it. I really want to become person with high self esteem. I really work hard on it to make it become true.
Although I can't enjoy my Christmas but I wish all my friends MERRY CHRISTMAS.
I still like a bird in a cage. Do not have the freedom to go anywhere I like. The only right I have is can sit in front of laptop for the whole day. Today (25 Dec 2009) I stay at home for whole day and this is the method I celebrate Christmas in year 2009 although I do not desire this kind of celebration. I have no choice at all, at home although I feel warm just like other people say home sweet home but the price is to sacrifice your freedom. At home, whenever I want to go also need permission from my parents, then only I can go. Wherever the place I want to go, my parents will say that it is too dangerous if I drive, but in front of other people, they will just say that I don't dare to drive even though I already have my driving license.
In this Christmas I also realize something about myself. I know the reason that make me have low self-esteem is because I am over protected and also keep getting negative message. I can say that until now that I am 19 years old. I haven't ride roller coaster before, not even once because of my parents. They will just deny my request. However, I can now starting to regain my self-esteem when I living with my house mate when studying university. It can force me to face my problem and overcome it. I really want to become person with high self esteem. I really work hard on it to make it become true.
Although I can't enjoy my Christmas but I wish all my friends MERRY CHRISTMAS.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Last week of Year 1 Trimester 2
Time passed just like the water flow.
The difference that we sense is when we are happy, the time passing just like the water from the upper stream, it flowing is faster than what we are expect. That's why many people say that when we are happy, the time passed so fast. However, when we are unhappy, sad, suffering, the time passing just like the water in the lower reaches. It flow tremendously slow. But that's just what we think because actually the rate of time passing is the same all the time. What make us feel is just our emotions and mood.
Today is the last class I attend for Organization and Human Resources and Interpersonal Communication. When after the lecturer say that she has covered all the syllabus, I started to feel that my heart become much more heavier than usual. Both of the lecturers I can say is good and during their lecture class, they can make the subject become interesting by telling jokes and personal experiences that relevant to the topic. This is also the first time that we all taught by the lecturer from other faculty with the subjects that are not relevant to science but will become very useful when we are working. What I can do now is to try my best in the final to prove that their teaching method is effective. Ms Shanti and Ms Eng, thank you very much and wish you all your best in getting ur Phd.
Beside these two subject, the lecturer for the other 2 subjects also accomplished their teaching plan. There are Emotional Intelligence in the Workplace and Sun Zi's Art of War and Business Strategy. These two subjects I can say I learnt many things and these two subjects we can't find it in other places. Mr. Sebastian, you are such an optimist that can cheer us up in the morning and your teaching is not stress at all. In your class, this is the first time in my presentation I feel not stress at all and very enjoy in it. Thank you and wish you all your best in getting your PhD. Dr Wong, what I can say is that you are such a comedian because you can just make us laugh suddenly. Haha. However, thanks for your teaching us how to survive in a business world.
Next week is my study leave and follow by the week is my final exam. On 23rd December, after I finished my last paper for year 1 trimester 2. That's the end of the second trimester. Although is the end of the second trimester but it is the starting of the third trimester which means that time is my year 1 trimester 3.
Although this trimester is just 7 weeks but I feel that I learn lots of things during these 7 weeks. Haha. Wish all my friends can try their best in the final exam. Cheer up and don't give up.
The difference that we sense is when we are happy, the time passing just like the water from the upper stream, it flowing is faster than what we are expect. That's why many people say that when we are happy, the time passed so fast. However, when we are unhappy, sad, suffering, the time passing just like the water in the lower reaches. It flow tremendously slow. But that's just what we think because actually the rate of time passing is the same all the time. What make us feel is just our emotions and mood.
Today is the last class I attend for Organization and Human Resources and Interpersonal Communication. When after the lecturer say that she has covered all the syllabus, I started to feel that my heart become much more heavier than usual. Both of the lecturers I can say is good and during their lecture class, they can make the subject become interesting by telling jokes and personal experiences that relevant to the topic. This is also the first time that we all taught by the lecturer from other faculty with the subjects that are not relevant to science but will become very useful when we are working. What I can do now is to try my best in the final to prove that their teaching method is effective. Ms Shanti and Ms Eng, thank you very much and wish you all your best in getting ur Phd.
Beside these two subject, the lecturer for the other 2 subjects also accomplished their teaching plan. There are Emotional Intelligence in the Workplace and Sun Zi's Art of War and Business Strategy. These two subjects I can say I learnt many things and these two subjects we can't find it in other places. Mr. Sebastian, you are such an optimist that can cheer us up in the morning and your teaching is not stress at all. In your class, this is the first time in my presentation I feel not stress at all and very enjoy in it. Thank you and wish you all your best in getting your PhD. Dr Wong, what I can say is that you are such a comedian because you can just make us laugh suddenly. Haha. However, thanks for your teaching us how to survive in a business world.
Next week is my study leave and follow by the week is my final exam. On 23rd December, after I finished my last paper for year 1 trimester 2. That's the end of the second trimester. Although is the end of the second trimester but it is the starting of the third trimester which means that time is my year 1 trimester 3.
Although this trimester is just 7 weeks but I feel that I learn lots of things during these 7 weeks. Haha. Wish all my friends can try their best in the final exam. Cheer up and don't give up.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Short sem is going to end soon
Today is already week 6 of my short trimester. Which means this short trimester is going to end in one more week and that's the time we will have our study break.
Although this short trimester I will sit for 2 final only but this 2 subject is quite hard and difficult for me as I haven't face this subject before and be honest, I am not very interested for one of this 2 subject as well. I am not saying this subject is bad but I am not interested at it. However, I still have to force myself to study it and that's why I feel very stress in this trimester.
My final exam will start on 16 and 23 of December which means that after 23 of December I will take a break and I hope I can cerebrate Christmas's Eve and Christmas in Kampar with my friends because after I go back to hometown I think I cannot cerebrate This festival because my parent doesn't like to cerebrate it. So I hope can cerebrate in Kampar with all my fellow friends. Haha.
Yesterday while I have my breakfast with my friends, One of my friend start to discuss about love and we all are attracted to this topic. Carlos then start to act like a lecturer and give us lecture about love. Haha. I feel quite interested in it but I think I am not mature enough so some I can't fully understand. After that, we all want to go back already but Carlos and YY still discuss about that topic. So we all have to wait for them to finish. However, what Carlos say is very meaningful. He got the potential to become a lecturer. I remember one thing that he say I agree the most, he say that if you want to breaking up with your boy/girlfriend. Please do not say that "you can find a better one" as reason, for outsiders, they will feel this sentences is like consolation but for them, this sentences will hurt them much more deeper.
If now I told my girlfriend that from now on, I will only treat you very good, will only dote you. For everything I promise and every words I say I will fulfill it no matter how. I won't lie to you, won't scold you and must take care of you. When you being bully, I must protect you. When you are happy, I have to happy with you. When you are unhappy, I have to make you happy. In my heart, I will love you for the eternity.
Should I say it out or should I hold back first?
Although this short trimester I will sit for 2 final only but this 2 subject is quite hard and difficult for me as I haven't face this subject before and be honest, I am not very interested for one of this 2 subject as well. I am not saying this subject is bad but I am not interested at it. However, I still have to force myself to study it and that's why I feel very stress in this trimester.
My final exam will start on 16 and 23 of December which means that after 23 of December I will take a break and I hope I can cerebrate Christmas's Eve and Christmas in Kampar with my friends because after I go back to hometown I think I cannot cerebrate This festival because my parent doesn't like to cerebrate it. So I hope can cerebrate in Kampar with all my fellow friends. Haha.
Yesterday while I have my breakfast with my friends, One of my friend start to discuss about love and we all are attracted to this topic. Carlos then start to act like a lecturer and give us lecture about love. Haha. I feel quite interested in it but I think I am not mature enough so some I can't fully understand. After that, we all want to go back already but Carlos and YY still discuss about that topic. So we all have to wait for them to finish. However, what Carlos say is very meaningful. He got the potential to become a lecturer. I remember one thing that he say I agree the most, he say that if you want to breaking up with your boy/girlfriend. Please do not say that "you can find a better one" as reason, for outsiders, they will feel this sentences is like consolation but for them, this sentences will hurt them much more deeper.
If now I told my girlfriend that from now on, I will only treat you very good, will only dote you. For everything I promise and every words I say I will fulfill it no matter how. I won't lie to you, won't scold you and must take care of you. When you being bully, I must protect you. When you are happy, I have to happy with you. When you are unhappy, I have to make you happy. In my heart, I will love you for the eternity.
Should I say it out or should I hold back first?
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Mid term exam is coming again
It's been a long period I have not update my blog. This is because I am quite busy and also a little bit lazy to update it. Haha.
The mid term for my year1 trimester2 will be held on Wednesday (11-11-09) and I will be sitting for 2 mid term exam on the same day and between the two mid term exam I have only 1 hour rest. It make me feel very stress because I have set my target quite high for this trimester. Another problem is this 2 subjects seem not related to the course I take and this is the first time I facing these 2 subjects. One is human resource and organization and another one is interpersonal communication. Right now I have already revise these 2 subjects but the problem is although I have revise it, I still feel that my brain is empty and after I memorize the things of another chapter I will forgot the things I memorize in the previous chapter. I wonder if this is normal or I am the only one will feel like this.
Other than the mid term. during these few weeks I can say that nearly everyday will rain in the afternoon or evening and will continue rain until mid night. I like rain because it can let me feel cooler but it also cause some problems to me. I doesn't like it rains during the time I want to go to school and the time I on the way back to hostel. There is one time where I go to school in the rain and make my clothes wet and I don't care about it and straightly go and attend the class. In the 1 hour stay in the lecture room with all the cold air blowing at me. I can say that it is very suffer and like being torturing by the air-cond.
I hope that I can do well in the mid term and I will believe myself that I can do it.
Best wishes to my friends who are going to sit for SPM and also other exam.
Best wishes to our EI lecturer Mr. Sebastian who is sitting for his viva.
The mid term for my year1 trimester2 will be held on Wednesday (11-11-09) and I will be sitting for 2 mid term exam on the same day and between the two mid term exam I have only 1 hour rest. It make me feel very stress because I have set my target quite high for this trimester. Another problem is this 2 subjects seem not related to the course I take and this is the first time I facing these 2 subjects. One is human resource and organization and another one is interpersonal communication. Right now I have already revise these 2 subjects but the problem is although I have revise it, I still feel that my brain is empty and after I memorize the things of another chapter I will forgot the things I memorize in the previous chapter. I wonder if this is normal or I am the only one will feel like this.
Other than the mid term. during these few weeks I can say that nearly everyday will rain in the afternoon or evening and will continue rain until mid night. I like rain because it can let me feel cooler but it also cause some problems to me. I doesn't like it rains during the time I want to go to school and the time I on the way back to hostel. There is one time where I go to school in the rain and make my clothes wet and I don't care about it and straightly go and attend the class. In the 1 hour stay in the lecture room with all the cold air blowing at me. I can say that it is very suffer and like being torturing by the air-cond.
I hope that I can do well in the mid term and I will believe myself that I can do it.
Best wishes to my friends who are going to sit for SPM and also other exam.
Best wishes to our EI lecturer Mr. Sebastian who is sitting for his viva.
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Mid - Autumn festival
This year mid - autumn festival I can say is not good as I expected. I can say that my expectation for this festival is not very high. I only want my family member can happy for this festival and I hope can visit my relative house during this festival but neither of this happen. My feeling while I write this post is sad, disappointed and feeling that are complicated. It is very uncomfortable.
This evening I heard that we will go and visit or relative's house and will held a BBQ party. I heard this I feel very happy and in my heart I think everything is just happen as I hope. But it does not happen as I hope. My parents say that we will held a BBQ but did not invite anyone. The thing that make me feel very sad is during that BBQ, I cannot feel any happiness during that time and my father just keep nagging. I can say that this BBQ I did not enjoy for most of the time.
The BBQ just end in 2 hours only, haiz. During clean up I don't know what happen and my father just get angry without any reason. Of course other members in my family become his victims. Actually I want to say him back but I afraid it will make things even worst so I just endure it.
After that, I know that we would not visit my relative this day just because my father get angry. How can this happen. So I did not say anything and just go into my room and sit in front of computer and watch animation. Normally, when I watching this animation I will laugh but today when I watch it I can't even smile. My happy mood is just like being sealed. My mother told me that this is the first time our relatives celebrate this festival in Ipoh. I know she want to go and visit but just because of one people and make others have to stay at home and doing nothing. This is not the mid - autumn festival that I want.
It is raining now outside and just like my feeling at this moment. I hope tomorrow will be a better day.
This evening I heard that we will go and visit or relative's house and will held a BBQ party. I heard this I feel very happy and in my heart I think everything is just happen as I hope. But it does not happen as I hope. My parents say that we will held a BBQ but did not invite anyone. The thing that make me feel very sad is during that BBQ, I cannot feel any happiness during that time and my father just keep nagging. I can say that this BBQ I did not enjoy for most of the time.
The BBQ just end in 2 hours only, haiz. During clean up I don't know what happen and my father just get angry without any reason. Of course other members in my family become his victims. Actually I want to say him back but I afraid it will make things even worst so I just endure it.
After that, I know that we would not visit my relative this day just because my father get angry. How can this happen. So I did not say anything and just go into my room and sit in front of computer and watch animation. Normally, when I watching this animation I will laugh but today when I watch it I can't even smile. My happy mood is just like being sealed. My mother told me that this is the first time our relatives celebrate this festival in Ipoh. I know she want to go and visit but just because of one people and make others have to stay at home and doing nothing. This is not the mid - autumn festival that I want.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
If I can be a cloud
It is week 13 of my year 1 trimester 1. In this 13 weeks I not only gain a lot of knowledge but also realise one thing that usually being ommited by others. It is the clouds in Kampar.
Sometimes I will go to school very early and sit in the library or canteen just want to enjoy watching the changes of the clouds. When I not happy or just feel like no mood at all I will also watch the cloud. It is very hard for me to tell other that by watching the clouds, your heart will slowly calm down just like a lake. I have this kind of eeling each time I watch the clouds.
At first I also feel that cloud is just a cloud. After sometimes, I just feel that clouds are not as easy that I think. It has different kind of cloud which just like the emotion of human. One thing different is cloud will express its "emotion" whenever you like or not. It would not hide its "emotion" like human. Sometimes I just think that will the relationship among humans can be better if we can express our feeling instead of hiding it inside our heart.
I am very disagree that a person like to hide his/her feeling inside his/her heart and just keep smiling at you like a person wearing a mask with smiling face. It is very scary because we don't know the word we say will hurt him/her or not. I like my friends saying out their feeling even it will cause me unhappy instead of just hiding it inside. However, I like people smiling but the smile must be from the heart instead of force yourself to smile. I know that sometimes we don't want to share our feeling with other is because we scare we will being hurt deeper.
Beside that, I am very admire one of my classmate. His groupmates which doesn't coorperate with him and just keep on delay their work. At first I thought he will complain it to the lecturer but he didn't do like that. The action he takes make me shock because he completes the whole group assignment by himself. When I ask him why he want to do like that and his answer impress me. He say that it is not worth that getting a good result by sacrifying friendships. This sentences is really meaningful.
Taken at my campus cafeteria
Cloud's crying
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Presentation @ 18 August 2009
This day can say is my first time wearing formal clothes for presentation. My feeling can say is nervous and also excited. Haha. These few day I have repeat rehearsal for many time for my part of presentation. This is because I want to do my best in it and also want to build up my confidence through it.
3 out of 5 of our presentation group members
Another photo during presentation day. All is our presentation group member except the man with short tie. Haha
Yippe, this photo is taken with Nono(my classmate) after I finish my presentation.
That's all for today, I will be update my blog few days later due to monday and tuesday I got examination.
Good luck to me and all my friends
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Raining...raining...and raining
This week I can say that everyday also raining and sommore the time is exactly the time I going back home from my campus.
Actually I love rain but when it rain at the time I want to go home is putting me into a trouble. I have to wear the raincoat and cycling to home. My raincoat is just can cover till my hip. So everytime I reach home my trousers sure already become fully wet. The worst case is the wind blow so heavy during raining. This really torture my bicycle and also torture me.
I really hope that next semester I can have a motor or a car to help me get rid of this problem.
Week 12
It's week 12 already. How can the time pass so fast until I cannot feel it.
It means that two more weeks then is our study break.
I can feel the pressure from the final examination is pushing on me again.
I have promise to myself that I must get a very good result during the 3 years of my university life because I hope I can get a first class honour.
However, I still cannot concentrate on my revision yet because there are still one assignment, one presentation for me to face it. Everytime I want to start revise and these things will come into my mind and cause me cannot concentrate on revision. I really hope I can finish the assignment and presentation as soon as possible.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
mid term exam is coming
Wow, it's already the end of week 10. That means four more weeks then is my study break and followed by final exam. After that is sem break time, it also means that my first trimester in university has ended. I can't imagine the speed of time.
However, next week I got 2 mid-term exam to come over and one lab practical test. Actually I am quite scare and not confident about myself because one of the two mid-term is atomic bonding and periodicity, which is the subject I quite worry about it because I got 2 topic isn't very understand. Especially the hybridization and molecular orbital. Yesterday I had already revise all the notes but after revise I don't know why my brain like empty one. Everytime I study will be like this, but during exam I can remember mostly but not all. I don't know why will this happens. Is it I not confident enough?
The practical test is the same day as atomic mid term exam. That means Tuesday I got 2 test to come over. I hope I manage to answer all the questions because I want to get a good result. I will work hard to get good result as I promise to myself before I enter university. I won't break my promise. ^^
Within this 10 weeks of university life, I can say I am very happy because I can get quite close to all my classmate. At first I think some of them is quite cool, but after sometimes I found out that they are cool from looking but not their heart. Most of them is very friendly and very helpful. But this Friday is quite pity because at first we all decide to have a gathering and eat sushi at Tesco together but because some of them have mid-term exam on Friday, so they cannot attend and just have half from our class able to attend. It is also quite happy but I think if all can attend then sure will be more fun and more happy.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Pressure is an invisible toucherer
Pressure can really make someone very suffer. I have been a victim of it few days before. It is a very scary experience for me.
This Tuesday, after I know there are many test in week 11 and lot of assignment during that week. I can feel the great pressure is pressing me. That day after I came back from school, I can feel I am very tired and like no more energy left. I also feel very dizzy when I reach my room. Before that I don't have this kind of feeling.
After I have my dinner and start revising, I don't know why every things I read I can't remember well. In my mind just have fear and feel no confident to myself. My temper also became very bad. That time I really want to cry because I don't know how to handle about it. When I sleep, I can say I cannot sleep very well. I woke up at 5 am and then I can't sleep anymore although I still very tired and sleepy. i have no choice but have to wake up and take bath. After that, I sit in front of my laptop and day dreaming for about 2 hours.
Suddenly, I see the light emerged from the sky and I can say it is very beautiful. The light is like bringing hope to everybody. I realized that I came to university is not just study but also have to enjoy it. Then I decided I won't push myself so hard until I nearly collapse.
Wednesday night, I decide not to revise so hard but just revise for an hour without force myself to memorize. I can feel I did not feel anymore pressure and very enjoy that kind of feeling. I hope my friends also won't push themselves so hard.
This Tuesday, after I know there are many test in week 11 and lot of assignment during that week. I can feel the great pressure is pressing me. That day after I came back from school, I can feel I am very tired and like no more energy left. I also feel very dizzy when I reach my room. Before that I don't have this kind of feeling.
After I have my dinner and start revising, I don't know why every things I read I can't remember well. In my mind just have fear and feel no confident to myself. My temper also became very bad. That time I really want to cry because I don't know how to handle about it. When I sleep, I can say I cannot sleep very well. I woke up at 5 am and then I can't sleep anymore although I still very tired and sleepy. i have no choice but have to wake up and take bath. After that, I sit in front of my laptop and day dreaming for about 2 hours.
Suddenly, I see the light emerged from the sky and I can say it is very beautiful. The light is like bringing hope to everybody. I realized that I came to university is not just study but also have to enjoy it. Then I decided I won't push myself so hard until I nearly collapse.
Wednesday night, I decide not to revise so hard but just revise for an hour without force myself to memorize. I can feel I did not feel anymore pressure and very enjoy that kind of feeling. I hope my friends also won't push themselves so hard.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Week 8 of the trimester
It's week 8 of the trimester already. Time really wait for no one.
It really pass so fast.
However, I can say that I gain many new knowledge in here.
This week can consider as a quite free week because there are no presentation and only 1 assignment to pass up. But the cell biology have the second assignment for us. It is to summarize a reasearch article. It is quite hard for me because after I see the research article that our group choose. I am not understand what it is talking about. This make me feel very worry although this assignment has to be pass up at 1st of September. I also don't know who should I ask about the second assignment and about the research article that we choose.
There are another assignment which is from basic professional writing. It is an interoffice proposal. It is a group assignment so I am not so scare. This is my first time facing proposal and don't know how to write it but I will try to face it and write it.
This Wednesday during Pengajian Malaysia class, there are one group of peoples presenting and they are my groupmates. I am impressed for their presentation. the lecturer also say that their presentation is the best for now. This is the first time I see a presentation which is not only talk but also have singing and somethings like talk show. I also hope our group can like they but it seem quite hard for us. But we will try ours best.
This Friday when I wake up. I heard a storm outside and the sound of heavy rain outside at around 6:30am. At first I assume it will stop raining about 7 or 7:30am but it still raining around 8:30am. I have a lab practical class at 9am. I straightly wear a raincoat and then straightly cycle to school. I am shock because I don't even know that I will do that because before I enter a university, I will surely absent class if raining. After that I tell someone about this and they all say I have grow up. I am very happy to heard that because when I am still a secondary school student, many of my friend say that I am childish and not mature enough. But when heard they say I have grow up. I am very happy.
There is one thing I feel not so happy is some of my friends like to delay and only will start doing assignment or other things at last minutes. Sometimes I tell them about it, they just say that I am too nervous. Am I really too nervous? I don't know who is correct.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Week 6 and week 7 of the trimester
These two weeks can say is a very busy weeks because there are lot of assignment and mid-term test in these two weeks. This is the first time I feel so much pressure than all the exam I have taken before.
Although I have study quite lot but when I sitting for the exam, I still have some questions not sure whether the answer is correct or not. The other things is everytime after I finish revise, I will feel my brain is like empty. Someone tell me that because I am lack of confident. I think it is true because I admit that I am lack of confident on many things. Anyway, I will try my best.
This Saturday (18 July 2009) is my lab practical exam. This is the first time I sit for this kind of exam. The exam is like this. There are 28 stations set up in the lab and everyone of us have to move from one station to one station after every 90 seconds. Each station has it's own question that you have to answer within that time. It is quite pressure but I enjoy it because it can train us to be fast and accurately. It is totally different from other exam that we sit down and answer the quesions. The another things is I am very admire my cell biology tutor - Dr Han. He is a very experience tutor. Although he is very strict and have a very high expectation for us. But what he say is very meaningful. But unluckily after this week, our cell biology laloratory will be taken over by another tutor. I hope that tutor will also very good.
Monday (20 July 2009) I am going to sit for my computer system and application mid term exam and I will try my best to get a high marks. I won't let myself and won't dissppoint the people that support me so far.
Thanks
Monday, July 13, 2009
Accident
Saturday (11 July 2009), while I am driving along a road. I see a motorcyclist with his son riding on motorcycle. The man wearing helmet but his son I think is about 2 years old does not wear any helmet or any protection. Sommore he put his son on the motorcycle basket. I see this I am quite angry with that man and feel worry about that children.
When I reach a junction, I heard a quite loud bang. I quickly see what had happened, I see the motor which has a man and a children knock by a car. The man does not injury because he wear a helmet but the children drop to the stone at the road side and cause his head bleeding and crying very loudly. Luckily someone quickly take the children to the hospital and others is scolding the man badly. I feel very angry about that man because how can he does not care the safety about his son and only care about his own safety. This is an irresponsible action.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
5th week of trimesters
Sorry for late update of my blog because I am quite busy last week.
Wow, it's the fifth week of this long trimester already.
What can I say is I feel the time is passing so fast.
It's been one month and a week in university already. Although it is fast but I learn many new things and gain quite lot of knowledge in here.
The fifth week can consider as busy week because I have done many assignment in this week. After I finish and I look through them, I feel very happy because I manage to done it quite well. I am quite enjoy the feeling when doing an assignment. At the beginning I feel very confused because I don't know how to start it but after I done the beginning, I start enjoy it because the idea keep flush into my brain. Haha
The fifth week I also have my cell biology presentation which I had describe in my last post. So here I don't talk about it too much. ^^
That's all for the fifth week. Now have to do the lab report already. Haha
Wow, it's the fifth week of this long trimester already.
What can I say is I feel the time is passing so fast.
It's been one month and a week in university already. Although it is fast but I learn many new things and gain quite lot of knowledge in here.
The fifth week can consider as busy week because I have done many assignment in this week. After I finish and I look through them, I feel very happy because I manage to done it quite well. I am quite enjoy the feeling when doing an assignment. At the beginning I feel very confused because I don't know how to start it but after I done the beginning, I start enjoy it because the idea keep flush into my brain. Haha
The fifth week I also have my cell biology presentation which I had describe in my last post. So here I don't talk about it too much. ^^
That's all for the fifth week. Now have to do the lab report already. Haha
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Photos from lab practical 2
Thursday, July 2, 2009
1st presentation
Yesterday (1st July 2009) is our group cell biology presentation.
I admit that we did not put too much concentration and preparation for it. ><
But at least we got make some research about it. Haha
When we start presentation I can say our order is totally messed because we don't know our presentation order and I suddenly being told to present one more organell slide. I am shock but I have to present it too. Luckily I manage to present it and make some joke with the classmate.
I can say that time I am quite nervous but when I start present I not feel any nervous but quite enjoy it because I see many classmate pay attention to our presentation. I am quite happy about it.
when our tutor say everyone except our group member have to give marks to us. I am quite scare because I scare will get low marks. When we ask the tutor give how many marks to us and he show us the marking paper, we calculate it and we got 81!!! I am very happy because it is a high mark. The tutor also say our presentation is very goood. I am very happy when I hear that. ^^
I admit that we did not put too much concentration and preparation for it. ><
But at least we got make some research about it. Haha
When we start presentation I can say our order is totally messed because we don't know our presentation order and I suddenly being told to present one more organell slide. I am shock but I have to present it too. Luckily I manage to present it and make some joke with the classmate.
I can say that time I am quite nervous but when I start present I not feel any nervous but quite enjoy it because I see many classmate pay attention to our presentation. I am quite happy about it.
when our tutor say everyone except our group member have to give marks to us. I am quite scare because I scare will get low marks. When we ask the tutor give how many marks to us and he show us the marking paper, we calculate it and we got 81!!! I am very happy because it is a high mark. The tutor also say our presentation is very goood. I am very happy when I hear that. ^^
Sunday, June 28, 2009
4th week of the trimester
Time pass so fast, the 4th week of the trimester has ended.
This week can say is a very busy week because I have about 4 to 5 assignment to do. That time then I know what be secondary school teacher say when study in a university, you are very free but you will be very busy when got assignment. That time when I heard that I not so believe but now I believed it. Assignment is not the same as homework in our secondary or primary school. When we are in secondary school, the homework question we can just finished it easily because all the answer is in the book but for assignment, you have to find the answer by yourselves by searching the internet, books, notes and others. When 1st time I do the assignment I feel very confused and hard because I haven't do this kind of homework before and don't know how to start. After finished some assignment then I start know how to do it.
This Friday morning, while I surfing the internet in school, I suddenly found out that Michael Jackson has passed away. I was shock when I see this and not believe. Then I straightly surf the news website then I know this news is true. I feel quite sad that time because we have lost one singer that is very good and famous. In the same week, I also know that one of my neighbour has passed away because of cancer. This make me feel that we must always value the people around us because future is unknown.
This week I don't know have to say is happy or sad. My emotion is very complex and I cannot say what kind of feeling is it. I hope the future will be better.
P/S: I will upload some photo of this week experiment in the next post.
This week can say is a very busy week because I have about 4 to 5 assignment to do. That time then I know what be secondary school teacher say when study in a university, you are very free but you will be very busy when got assignment. That time when I heard that I not so believe but now I believed it. Assignment is not the same as homework in our secondary or primary school. When we are in secondary school, the homework question we can just finished it easily because all the answer is in the book but for assignment, you have to find the answer by yourselves by searching the internet, books, notes and others. When 1st time I do the assignment I feel very confused and hard because I haven't do this kind of homework before and don't know how to start. After finished some assignment then I start know how to do it.
This Friday morning, while I surfing the internet in school, I suddenly found out that Michael Jackson has passed away. I was shock when I see this and not believe. Then I straightly surf the news website then I know this news is true. I feel quite sad that time because we have lost one singer that is very good and famous. In the same week, I also know that one of my neighbour has passed away because of cancer. This make me feel that we must always value the people around us because future is unknown.
This week I don't know have to say is happy or sad. My emotion is very complex and I cannot say what kind of feeling is it. I hope the future will be better.
P/S: I will upload some photo of this week experiment in the next post.
mood quite down
Today I can just say my mood is quite down. I've choose the 2nd choice for today which is spend today with sadness.
These few day I quite easy to get dizzy. I am very scare, today when I wake up from my bed and start to walk to the bathroom. Suddenly I can't see anything, it's totally dark, I feel like I nearly faint. After few second then only become normal again. I know that my body is getting weaker. This March when I go for blood checking, I being told by the doctor that I have anaemia. I did not feel shock because when I know I easily get dizzy, I know that I have a very high chance that I have anaemia. When I see the people playing football, basketball and etc. I also like to join them but my body condition and my skill in that sport is poor. Luckily my anaemia is not serious. I can still cycle, play badminton and some sport. I've been laugh by people before, they say how can a man cannot play soccer or basketball. That time my heart is very pain but I still smile to them and say that I am weak. Maybe this is the reason that make me can't attract girls. Haha.
Beside that, I know many people see me for the 1st time, the first question they ask is are you really XXyears old? why are you so thin. I have listen to this question many times already. I also want myself not to be so thin, I can say I eat a lot but it just doesn't work. So it's very hard to protect anyone. I also think some girl will feel I can't give them the feeling of safety if together with me. Now, I am still trying to accept this truth but sometimes I really want to cry. There are one zodiac prediction is very accurate, it say when I am very sad, I will just use smile to hide it inside my heart. That is true. Haha
Another things that make me feel very sad is today I heard from my friend that one of my secondary school classmate who currently studying in Australia. She had infected by H1N1. Now I very worry about her because we have been classmate for 3 years. Now I still don't know how is her condition because we have lost contact for few months. What I can do is hope she will recover soon.
These few day I quite easy to get dizzy. I am very scare, today when I wake up from my bed and start to walk to the bathroom. Suddenly I can't see anything, it's totally dark, I feel like I nearly faint. After few second then only become normal again. I know that my body is getting weaker. This March when I go for blood checking, I being told by the doctor that I have anaemia. I did not feel shock because when I know I easily get dizzy, I know that I have a very high chance that I have anaemia. When I see the people playing football, basketball and etc. I also like to join them but my body condition and my skill in that sport is poor. Luckily my anaemia is not serious. I can still cycle, play badminton and some sport. I've been laugh by people before, they say how can a man cannot play soccer or basketball. That time my heart is very pain but I still smile to them and say that I am weak. Maybe this is the reason that make me can't attract girls. Haha.
Beside that, I know many people see me for the 1st time, the first question they ask is are you really XXyears old? why are you so thin. I have listen to this question many times already. I also want myself not to be so thin, I can say I eat a lot but it just doesn't work. So it's very hard to protect anyone. I also think some girl will feel I can't give them the feeling of safety if together with me. Now, I am still trying to accept this truth but sometimes I really want to cry. There are one zodiac prediction is very accurate, it say when I am very sad, I will just use smile to hide it inside my heart. That is true. Haha
Another things that make me feel very sad is today I heard from my friend that one of my secondary school classmate who currently studying in Australia. She had infected by H1N1. Now I very worry about her because we have been classmate for 3 years. Now I still don't know how is her condition because we have lost contact for few months. What I can do is hope she will recover soon.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Share some photos during experiment
I just transfer some photos during experiment from my handphone and now sharing with you all. Hope you like it. ^^
Observed the stomata from a celery at high power
observed the stomata from a celery at low power
Tools that we use during our cell structure I experiments.
Observed the stomata from a celery at high power
observed the stomata from a celery at low power
Tools that we use during our cell structure I experiments.
Time pass too fast
Time really passed to fast.
Now I've already in the fourth week of university life.
It's already one month since the orientation week.
I wonder time passed so fast is good or bad.
Now I have already three assignment for me to do it. It is quite stress.
1st assignment is pengajian malaysia, 2nd assignment is writing an Inter-office memo, 3rd assignment is cell biology presentation.
I am quite afraid and nervous about the cell biology presentation because I don't have experience in presentation and easy nervous.
The presentation is held on next week and until now I and my group members haven't meeting yet, I'm afraid the time is not enough for us to prepare. The worst is now our group still don't have a group leader and it make the situation worst, I now planned to make my own slide in case of waiting them to held a meeting, will I be bad if I do like this? Maybe some people will say I am not coorperate with them. Haiz
I hope everythings will be fine and will run as smooth as possible.
Now I've already in the fourth week of university life.
It's already one month since the orientation week.
I wonder time passed so fast is good or bad.
Now I have already three assignment for me to do it. It is quite stress.
1st assignment is pengajian malaysia, 2nd assignment is writing an Inter-office memo, 3rd assignment is cell biology presentation.
I am quite afraid and nervous about the cell biology presentation because I don't have experience in presentation and easy nervous.
The presentation is held on next week and until now I and my group members haven't meeting yet, I'm afraid the time is not enough for us to prepare. The worst is now our group still don't have a group leader and it make the situation worst, I now planned to make my own slide in case of waiting them to held a meeting, will I be bad if I do like this? Maybe some people will say I am not coorperate with them. Haiz
I hope everythings will be fine and will run as smooth as possible.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
3rd week of the trimester part 3
This friday I feel quite sorry to my groupmate. I now apologize to them, sorry.
This Friday atomic structure & periodicity lab lesson, today our experiment name is called titration, when the tutor say start to do, I don't know what step should I do because during my secondary school times, I only do titration once only. I feel very scare because others like expert in titration experiment already, the things I feel sorry is I have take wrong chemical solution and make the result is completely wrong. I have my my group experiment fail already, I am sorry about that, I should not do the experiment by my own without heard what my groupmate said.
I will promise that start from next experiment, I will heard what my groupmate say and wonld not do it by my own only.
This Friday atomic structure & periodicity lab lesson, today our experiment name is called titration, when the tutor say start to do, I don't know what step should I do because during my secondary school times, I only do titration once only. I feel very scare because others like expert in titration experiment already, the things I feel sorry is I have take wrong chemical solution and make the result is completely wrong. I have my my group experiment fail already, I am sorry about that, I should not do the experiment by my own without heard what my groupmate said.
I will promise that start from next experiment, I will heard what my groupmate say and wonld not do it by my own only.
3rd week of the trimester part 2
This Thursday when I cycle to school around 10am and when I heading to block B to park my bicycle, suddenly one guard shout at me and force me to park at block d. I don't know why they want to do like that, before Thusday we still can park our bicycle at block b but now it only allow us to park one row at block b and after the row full we have to park our bicycle to the rocky area near block d, I don't know why they want to do like that but I really don't like the behaviour of that guard that shout to me, he can just tell me but not to shout at me like that. If that happen again I will write a letter to complain about that guard.
I also heard some of my friends say that the guard like to bully those freshmen like us and somoetimes the guard push some bicycle rudely and cause some damage to the bicycle. I hope the management can take action about it because if this continue happens, it will destroy the UTAR in others mind.
I also heard some of my friends say that the guard like to bully those freshmen like us and somoetimes the guard push some bicycle rudely and cause some damage to the bicycle. I hope the management can take action about it because if this continue happens, it will destroy the UTAR in others mind.
3rd week of the trimester part 1
This week I gt quite a lot of things to say it out.
1st is about sign for the attendance during lecture.
At first I don't know that how come 250+ students sign the attendance list so slow.
But this Monday I heard my biochemistry friend said that he saw a girl signing the attendance, but after the girl sign she did not pass the list to the next person but choose to keep it and keep looking at the attendance list, that time my friend told me that he is very angry and want to scold her already but he choose nt to do it. After 25minutes then the girl pass the attendance list to the person next to her. After I heard I am also very angry aboout the behaviour of the girl, how come got a person like that and let others wait like that, I don't know whether I can called the girl is a very selfish girl.
The same day, one of my friends who came to visit us during his NYP holiday, we told him about this incident, after he heard he shocked, he told us that in Singapore NYP, they don't need to sign, they just need to scan their student ID when they attend any class. After we heard, we feel that if UTAR can have that kind of facilities, then we no need to wait to sign the attendance list again, it is easier for us and also the staff, it also can prevent friends sign attendance for their absent friends. I really hope UTAR can have this facilities.
1st is about sign for the attendance during lecture.
At first I don't know that how come 250+ students sign the attendance list so slow.
But this Monday I heard my biochemistry friend said that he saw a girl signing the attendance, but after the girl sign she did not pass the list to the next person but choose to keep it and keep looking at the attendance list, that time my friend told me that he is very angry and want to scold her already but he choose nt to do it. After 25minutes then the girl pass the attendance list to the person next to her. After I heard I am also very angry aboout the behaviour of the girl, how come got a person like that and let others wait like that, I don't know whether I can called the girl is a very selfish girl.
The same day, one of my friends who came to visit us during his NYP holiday, we told him about this incident, after he heard he shocked, he told us that in Singapore NYP, they don't need to sign, they just need to scan their student ID when they attend any class. After we heard, we feel that if UTAR can have that kind of facilities, then we no need to wait to sign the attendance list again, it is easier for us and also the staff, it also can prevent friends sign attendance for their absent friends. I really hope UTAR can have this facilities.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
2nd week of the trimester
Time is passing quite fast. Today is the end of week 2 already.
But still gt many things not very know about it.
This Tuesday I gt a computer lab lesson, it is quite simple because the tutor is just teaching some basic about Microsft Word but I get confused about the homework she gives, the instruction in the homework is very weird.
Wednesday, I attend the subject I not really like, it is 'Pengajian Malaysia'. I am not very interested in history but it is a compulsory subject in my course. This subject also give me an assignment to do. This is the first time I do an assignment and after finish it I feel quite happy and feel I have complete a mission. Haha!
Friday is my lab1A lesson, it is practical lesson, our group's cell biology practical tutor is called Dr. Han. He is quite fierce and he like a disipline teacher and his expectation is quite high. Now I feel quite some pressure about this lesson. The next lab practical is about Chemistry, this time the tutor is a female and she is quite funny, the way she teach is nice and she likes to tell us joke.
the only problem is until now I still don't have a lab coat because it haven't arrive yet and the lab officer tell us that it will be avalaible on next monday and I hope I can buy it.
PS: to all my friend and girlfriend who study in secondary school, the school is going to reopen next week, wish you all can have a enjoyable secondary school life and be hardworking. ^^
But still gt many things not very know about it.
This Tuesday I gt a computer lab lesson, it is quite simple because the tutor is just teaching some basic about Microsft Word but I get confused about the homework she gives, the instruction in the homework is very weird.
Wednesday, I attend the subject I not really like, it is 'Pengajian Malaysia'. I am not very interested in history but it is a compulsory subject in my course. This subject also give me an assignment to do. This is the first time I do an assignment and after finish it I feel quite happy and feel I have complete a mission. Haha!
Friday is my lab1A lesson, it is practical lesson, our group's cell biology practical tutor is called Dr. Han. He is quite fierce and he like a disipline teacher and his expectation is quite high. Now I feel quite some pressure about this lesson. The next lab practical is about Chemistry, this time the tutor is a female and she is quite funny, the way she teach is nice and she likes to tell us joke.
the only problem is until now I still don't have a lab coat because it haven't arrive yet and the lab officer tell us that it will be avalaible on next monday and I hope I can buy it.
PS: to all my friend and girlfriend who study in secondary school, the school is going to reopen next week, wish you all can have a enjoyable secondary school life and be hardworking. ^^
Sunday, June 7, 2009
1st week of the trimester
It's passed the 1st week in university.
What I can say is I haven't can settle it down and I still very blur about the university and their management.
When 1st time I attend the lecture class I feel very nervous and feel very scare because I scare I can't understand what the lecturer is talking about but after I listen to what the lecturer say I can understand what's the lecturer say and I found out that the lecturer is very good and his teaching is interesting.
This Friday I have missed my 1st class of laboratory and the reason is I just know it gt lab last minute and it just make me very frustrated, how can it have a lab class suddenly and the timetable in intranet and the faculty one is different, so is which side wrong and have to be responsible? This is not only the insident that make me feel the management is quite bad, the same day, I have a class at 3pm and when I reach the university and I found out that the 3pm class is for group 1 only and I am group but the timetable in my intranet say that there will be a class at 3pm for my group. At that time I see another girl is also very confuse with the timetable, she say that she is very confuse and don't know want to follow which timetable.
I hope that this kind of insident won't happened again because it has cause many inconvenience to many students.
Tomorrow morning I will be going back to Kampar and will come back to Ipoh on Friday.
What I can say is I haven't can settle it down and I still very blur about the university and their management.
When 1st time I attend the lecture class I feel very nervous and feel very scare because I scare I can't understand what the lecturer is talking about but after I listen to what the lecturer say I can understand what's the lecturer say and I found out that the lecturer is very good and his teaching is interesting.
This Friday I have missed my 1st class of laboratory and the reason is I just know it gt lab last minute and it just make me very frustrated, how can it have a lab class suddenly and the timetable in intranet and the faculty one is different, so is which side wrong and have to be responsible? This is not only the insident that make me feel the management is quite bad, the same day, I have a class at 3pm and when I reach the university and I found out that the 3pm class is for group 1 only and I am group but the timetable in my intranet say that there will be a class at 3pm for my group. At that time I see another girl is also very confuse with the timetable, she say that she is very confuse and don't know want to follow which timetable.
I hope that this kind of insident won't happened again because it has cause many inconvenience to many students.
Tomorrow morning I will be going back to Kampar and will come back to Ipoh on Friday.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Homesickness
I have go back from Kampar since Thusday.
The first time I live in Kampar till Thusday I very miss my home, my family.
That time I am sure I gt homesick already. I can remember last Sunday when I first moved in there I cry in the night, I miss my home, I can't adapt the university life.
I know many peoples will laugh at me saying me is like a baby, always need to stay in the home but I have to admit that I am like a baby.
I still remember 1st time I go for study in primary school, I cry for a whole month, I know my adapt ability is very weak and I feel I very weak, can't handle with pressure, scare to make new friends, scare many things, easy become worry and anxious.
I very admire those who can adapt to new environment very fast and won't get homesick.
Now I really don't know what should I do. I know nobody can help me except myself.
I am 19 years old already but I still like a small child always need stick with home and parents.
I know I have to be independent but I don't know how.
The first time I live in Kampar till Thusday I very miss my home, my family.
That time I am sure I gt homesick already. I can remember last Sunday when I first moved in there I cry in the night, I miss my home, I can't adapt the university life.
I know many peoples will laugh at me saying me is like a baby, always need to stay in the home but I have to admit that I am like a baby.
I still remember 1st time I go for study in primary school, I cry for a whole month, I know my adapt ability is very weak and I feel I very weak, can't handle with pressure, scare to make new friends, scare many things, easy become worry and anxious.
I very admire those who can adapt to new environment very fast and won't get homesick.
Now I really don't know what should I do. I know nobody can help me except myself.
I am 19 years old already but I still like a small child always need stick with home and parents.
I know I have to be independent but I don't know how.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Health problem
Today I went to the clinic for a hepitatis B vaccine injection.
After the injection I found out that I still have to eat the medicine for increase my red blood cell numbers because I has light anaemia.
I feel that I am too weak, so easy feel dizzy and I am going to university soon and I can't join the sport club because of my condition. All I can join is non-sport type club.
I doesn't know that when my body will become strong and healthy.
After the injection I found out that I still have to eat the medicine for increase my red blood cell numbers because I has light anaemia.
I feel that I am too weak, so easy feel dizzy and I am going to university soon and I can't join the sport club because of my condition. All I can join is non-sport type club.
I doesn't know that when my body will become strong and healthy.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
let's fight hunger
Today when I surt the internet, I accidentally suft to a webpage call freerice.
At first I just think is a normal website but after I read the content in the website then I just find out that it is a website to fight the hunger, it is like a quiz, when you get 1 question correct, they will sponsor 10 grains of rice. It also means that if the more you answer correctly, the more they will sponsor. I hope many people will participating in it.
The link is http://www.freerice.com/index.php
At first I just think is a normal website but after I read the content in the website then I just find out that it is a website to fight the hunger, it is like a quiz, when you get 1 question correct, they will sponsor 10 grains of rice. It also means that if the more you answer correctly, the more they will sponsor. I hope many people will participating in it.
The link is http://www.freerice.com/index.php
Monday, May 11, 2009
1yr since together
Today can say is a day that is meaningful to me.
I and my girlfriend have been together for 1 year already.
Although for some people think that 1 year together is normal but for me I can say is quite special because I and my girlfriend is long distance love.
At first both of us is scare either one of us will tired of waiting for the other but we still managed to face the problem and together happily. Although sometimes we will have not the same opinion and sometimes I also got make you angry or sad. I apologize about that.
Qiqi, I love you and I hope we can be together forever. Muacks. ^^
I and my girlfriend have been together for 1 year already.
Although for some people think that 1 year together is normal but for me I can say is quite special because I and my girlfriend is long distance love.
At first both of us is scare either one of us will tired of waiting for the other but we still managed to face the problem and together happily. Although sometimes we will have not the same opinion and sometimes I also got make you angry or sad. I apologize about that.
Qiqi, I love you and I hope we can be together forever. Muacks. ^^
Sunday, May 10, 2009
going to UTAR soon
Just 2 more weeks then I'll be going to UTAR for further study.
The feeling is happy, excited and also worry.
Happy is I can continue study, excited is I can meet new friends and face the new course and worry is I scare of leaving home because I havent leaving home and live outside before.
But I have decided no matter how hard is my course, I will face it and will not give up.
P/S All my friends that are going for further study or working, I hope you all will not forget each other and when you do somethings don't scare or give up so easily. I miss you all
The feeling is happy, excited and also worry.
Happy is I can continue study, excited is I can meet new friends and face the new course and worry is I scare of leaving home because I havent leaving home and live outside before.
But I have decided no matter how hard is my course, I will face it and will not give up.
P/S All my friends that are going for further study or working, I hope you all will not forget each other and when you do somethings don't scare or give up so easily. I miss you all
blog created
1st blog of mine.
just finish create my blog, although the template is simple but comfort to see.
I'll update my blog frequently. ^^
just finish create my blog, although the template is simple but comfort to see.
I'll update my blog frequently. ^^
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