Christmas @ 2009

This year Christmas is just like normal days.

I still like a bird in a cage. Do not have the freedom to go anywhere I like. The only right I have is can sit in front of laptop for the whole day. Today (25 Dec 2009) I stay at home for whole day and this is the method I celebrate Christmas in year 2009 although I do not desire this kind of celebration. I have no choice at all, at home although I feel warm just like other people say home sweet home but the price is to sacrifice your freedom. At home, whenever I want to go also need permission from my parents, then only I can go. Wherever the place I want to go, my parents will say that it is too dangerous if I drive, but in front of other people, they will just say that I don't dare to drive even though I already have my driving license.

In this Christmas I also realize something about myself. I know the reason that make me have low self-esteem is because I am over protected and also keep getting negative message. I can say that until now that I am 19 years old. I haven't ride roller coaster before, not even once because of my parents. They will just deny my request. However, I can now starting to regain my self-esteem when I living with my house mate when studying university. It can force me to face my problem and overcome it. I really want to become person with high self esteem. I really work hard on it to make it become true.

Although I can't enjoy my Christmas but I wish all my friends MERRY CHRISTMAS.