Am I tired of being alone

This is the first time I am the only one stay in my kampar house. haha.

At the beginning I feel it is quite fun because the whole internet line is being use by me. After few hours, I start to feel boring, feel that want to chat with anyone else but the whole house is empty. Whatever thing I do today hard to say is complete, and also very easy to get tired and feel like giving up, mood also quite down. Is this show that I have tired of being alone? My answer is probably yes, I think that we have to interact with each other in order to cheer up our life by sharing our happiness, chit chat with friends that sort of activity.

Now the weather outside my windows is just like my mood, it is grey in colour, loss of colour, very dull. Although it is windy but it feel like the wind of lonely.

Before that I feel that we can live by ourselves but now I reject my null hypothesis and conclude that we have to interact or communicate with other people in order to cheer up our life. Our life is just like a paper with black lines and need to fill using friendship, love, and etc to make it a beautiful picture. If we lack of either one of it, our life like missing some part. Life without friends is just like living in a cell. Those who do not want to make friend or have friend is just like you got the key to get out from the cell but you don't want to use the key to get yourselves out.

My friends, thanks for being my friends and make my life colourful, thank you a lot. ^^

Phantom of The Night 2010

One word I can use to describe this prom night is SUPERB. It can say that the happiest moment in this trimester for now. The beginning of the prom start with a sadness but with an epic ending.

The programme got a little flaw but overall it can consider good. Anyway, I hope the waltz dance session can be longer because it seem too short. XD

My feeling for that night is hard to be describe using word, don't know is due to my limited vocabulary or what, haha. but enjoy that moment with all my friends is very happy and almost all my female friends having a make-up are totally out of my expectation, because they are just awesome and I am quite regret that I did not wear blazer, I will confirm wear a blazer in the next prom although don't know when, haha.

Kit Yin, thanks for fetching me to the prom and I quite 'enjoy' sitting in a car with 6 girls and I am the only boy. haha. Esther, Wei Yin, Yin Huan, HL, Kit Yin, Mint etc, you make me confirm that in Biotech, there are no ugly girls but only lazy girls, haha. cheer up, MISS BIOTECH!!! XDDD

I will upload some photo that I 'steal' from someone profile. haha

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A new beginning – Year 2

Now is my 2nd week of my year 2, at last I am able to proceed to my year 2 without much obstacles. hahaha. All thanks to my fellow friends, without you all, I think it is hard because you help me a lot. ^^

Although it is happy to be in year 2 but I also see some reality because some of my friends are unable to proceed and they are either change course or under probation. So, I send my best wishes for them.

However, year 2 doesn’t means can relax. Year 2 means must work 2 times harder than year 1 because the subjects are getting tougher and more specific than year 1. That’s why year 2 must do double work. From last week until now, I can say that the subjects are not easy to master it because it is wider and more specific. I will try my best to master it so I can push my CGPA to my target. Same wishes to all my friends, gambateh in your studies. XD

My third trimester break

It is my 3rd trimester break, haha, finally my exam for this trimester has ended.

However, during the final exam period, I can feel that some of my friends change to another person who is only care about themselves and become selfish. I just feel that they taking the final exam more than friendship and other things.

However, I am happy because I still have some friends who is still remain as what they are. I appreciate that I can have this kind of friend.

Now is the time for me to rest but I started to feel bored because during the first few day of my break, I just stay at home and got nothing to do and some more I don't have transportation to go anywhere. However, I will take this break to let my body recover and take enough rest. So that I can have enough energy in order to facing the beginning of next trimester which is my Year 2 Trimester 1.

I wish all my friends can have a happy and healthy break. Haha 

Love that hurt

When the time you send me to told me that you have think deeply and decide to break up, I've got nothing that I can do but to accept it.

When the feeling of love start to fade away, that is the time we are being tested and both of us were unable to go trough it. It's my fault, I was unable to fulfill your need and request. When I want to say something I just don't know how to express it, maybe all of this is caused by me.

After break up, I was thinking a lot of things. I just can't forget what you say. I remember the time that we say we love each other, we make promises. In the end, all of it were just our imagination, without any reality. Maybe that is the problem will occur for long distance love. I also remember that you want me to promise that I have to sleep early, I have to release stress, I have to sms you when I go or back from school, and etc. But now, I just feel empty, my heart was empty, all left is just like needle that stab into my heart. The sweeter we are the more I hurt now.

The luckiest thing is that I can be your boyfriend, the worst thing is our relationship cannot last longer. I understand waiting is a suffering process, even though I say don't give up, but what does it can represent? Maybe less suffer will be better. If we love each other but many problems occur, I will choose to give up because it is the fastest and easiest way.

Now I started to understand, when loving someone, it doesn't need to have her repay, when I see you happy and enjoy, I would be your guardian and protect you silently. If I did not agree with you that time, both of us will be more suffer.

If we break up, maybe both of us will have happiness.