Love that hurt

When the time you send me to told me that you have think deeply and decide to break up, I've got nothing that I can do but to accept it.

When the feeling of love start to fade away, that is the time we are being tested and both of us were unable to go trough it. It's my fault, I was unable to fulfill your need and request. When I want to say something I just don't know how to express it, maybe all of this is caused by me.

After break up, I was thinking a lot of things. I just can't forget what you say. I remember the time that we say we love each other, we make promises. In the end, all of it were just our imagination, without any reality. Maybe that is the problem will occur for long distance love. I also remember that you want me to promise that I have to sleep early, I have to release stress, I have to sms you when I go or back from school, and etc. But now, I just feel empty, my heart was empty, all left is just like needle that stab into my heart. The sweeter we are the more I hurt now.

The luckiest thing is that I can be your boyfriend, the worst thing is our relationship cannot last longer. I understand waiting is a suffering process, even though I say don't give up, but what does it can represent? Maybe less suffer will be better. If we love each other but many problems occur, I will choose to give up because it is the fastest and easiest way.

Now I started to understand, when loving someone, it doesn't need to have her repay, when I see you happy and enjoy, I would be your guardian and protect you silently. If I did not agree with you that time, both of us will be more suffer.

If we break up, maybe both of us will have happiness.