Are girls that mysterious like what the Chinese say "women's heart are like the needle under the sea."?
What will you think if a girl suddenly make you feel that she is unhappy and when you ask her what happen and she just say don't know? As for me, I will feel nervous and worry about it. I want to make her become happy again just like before but I really don't know where can I start to find out what is the source of the problem. Although I have already try hard but what I can feel is I can't even make her laugh and even I feel that I make the situation worst. I really want to help her but now I feel helpless. I don't know where the problem come from, what cause the problem. In the end, I and her are in the cold war now, I want to help her but what I get is just negative message that refuse me to help her. This is the longest cold war between I and her ever been. Haiz
I really hope that she can tell me what is actually happen and can become happy again. Wish you can enjoy your university life in KL.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Friday, December 25, 2009
Christmas @ 2009
This year Christmas is just like normal days.
I still like a bird in a cage. Do not have the freedom to go anywhere I like. The only right I have is can sit in front of laptop for the whole day. Today (25 Dec 2009) I stay at home for whole day and this is the method I celebrate Christmas in year 2009 although I do not desire this kind of celebration. I have no choice at all, at home although I feel warm just like other people say home sweet home but the price is to sacrifice your freedom. At home, whenever I want to go also need permission from my parents, then only I can go. Wherever the place I want to go, my parents will say that it is too dangerous if I drive, but in front of other people, they will just say that I don't dare to drive even though I already have my driving license.
In this Christmas I also realize something about myself. I know the reason that make me have low self-esteem is because I am over protected and also keep getting negative message. I can say that until now that I am 19 years old. I haven't ride roller coaster before, not even once because of my parents. They will just deny my request. However, I can now starting to regain my self-esteem when I living with my house mate when studying university. It can force me to face my problem and overcome it. I really want to become person with high self esteem. I really work hard on it to make it become true.
Although I can't enjoy my Christmas but I wish all my friends MERRY CHRISTMAS.
I still like a bird in a cage. Do not have the freedom to go anywhere I like. The only right I have is can sit in front of laptop for the whole day. Today (25 Dec 2009) I stay at home for whole day and this is the method I celebrate Christmas in year 2009 although I do not desire this kind of celebration. I have no choice at all, at home although I feel warm just like other people say home sweet home but the price is to sacrifice your freedom. At home, whenever I want to go also need permission from my parents, then only I can go. Wherever the place I want to go, my parents will say that it is too dangerous if I drive, but in front of other people, they will just say that I don't dare to drive even though I already have my driving license.
In this Christmas I also realize something about myself. I know the reason that make me have low self-esteem is because I am over protected and also keep getting negative message. I can say that until now that I am 19 years old. I haven't ride roller coaster before, not even once because of my parents. They will just deny my request. However, I can now starting to regain my self-esteem when I living with my house mate when studying university. It can force me to face my problem and overcome it. I really want to become person with high self esteem. I really work hard on it to make it become true.
Although I can't enjoy my Christmas but I wish all my friends MERRY CHRISTMAS.
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Last week of Year 1 Trimester 2
Time passed just like the water flow.
The difference that we sense is when we are happy, the time passing just like the water from the upper stream, it flowing is faster than what we are expect. That's why many people say that when we are happy, the time passed so fast. However, when we are unhappy, sad, suffering, the time passing just like the water in the lower reaches. It flow tremendously slow. But that's just what we think because actually the rate of time passing is the same all the time. What make us feel is just our emotions and mood.
Today is the last class I attend for Organization and Human Resources and Interpersonal Communication. When after the lecturer say that she has covered all the syllabus, I started to feel that my heart become much more heavier than usual. Both of the lecturers I can say is good and during their lecture class, they can make the subject become interesting by telling jokes and personal experiences that relevant to the topic. This is also the first time that we all taught by the lecturer from other faculty with the subjects that are not relevant to science but will become very useful when we are working. What I can do now is to try my best in the final to prove that their teaching method is effective. Ms Shanti and Ms Eng, thank you very much and wish you all your best in getting ur Phd.
Beside these two subject, the lecturer for the other 2 subjects also accomplished their teaching plan. There are Emotional Intelligence in the Workplace and Sun Zi's Art of War and Business Strategy. These two subjects I can say I learnt many things and these two subjects we can't find it in other places. Mr. Sebastian, you are such an optimist that can cheer us up in the morning and your teaching is not stress at all. In your class, this is the first time in my presentation I feel not stress at all and very enjoy in it. Thank you and wish you all your best in getting your PhD. Dr Wong, what I can say is that you are such a comedian because you can just make us laugh suddenly. Haha. However, thanks for your teaching us how to survive in a business world.
Next week is my study leave and follow by the week is my final exam. On 23rd December, after I finished my last paper for year 1 trimester 2. That's the end of the second trimester. Although is the end of the second trimester but it is the starting of the third trimester which means that time is my year 1 trimester 3.
Although this trimester is just 7 weeks but I feel that I learn lots of things during these 7 weeks. Haha. Wish all my friends can try their best in the final exam. Cheer up and don't give up.
The difference that we sense is when we are happy, the time passing just like the water from the upper stream, it flowing is faster than what we are expect. That's why many people say that when we are happy, the time passed so fast. However, when we are unhappy, sad, suffering, the time passing just like the water in the lower reaches. It flow tremendously slow. But that's just what we think because actually the rate of time passing is the same all the time. What make us feel is just our emotions and mood.
Today is the last class I attend for Organization and Human Resources and Interpersonal Communication. When after the lecturer say that she has covered all the syllabus, I started to feel that my heart become much more heavier than usual. Both of the lecturers I can say is good and during their lecture class, they can make the subject become interesting by telling jokes and personal experiences that relevant to the topic. This is also the first time that we all taught by the lecturer from other faculty with the subjects that are not relevant to science but will become very useful when we are working. What I can do now is to try my best in the final to prove that their teaching method is effective. Ms Shanti and Ms Eng, thank you very much and wish you all your best in getting ur Phd.
Beside these two subject, the lecturer for the other 2 subjects also accomplished their teaching plan. There are Emotional Intelligence in the Workplace and Sun Zi's Art of War and Business Strategy. These two subjects I can say I learnt many things and these two subjects we can't find it in other places. Mr. Sebastian, you are such an optimist that can cheer us up in the morning and your teaching is not stress at all. In your class, this is the first time in my presentation I feel not stress at all and very enjoy in it. Thank you and wish you all your best in getting your PhD. Dr Wong, what I can say is that you are such a comedian because you can just make us laugh suddenly. Haha. However, thanks for your teaching us how to survive in a business world.
Next week is my study leave and follow by the week is my final exam. On 23rd December, after I finished my last paper for year 1 trimester 2. That's the end of the second trimester. Although is the end of the second trimester but it is the starting of the third trimester which means that time is my year 1 trimester 3.
Although this trimester is just 7 weeks but I feel that I learn lots of things during these 7 weeks. Haha. Wish all my friends can try their best in the final exam. Cheer up and don't give up.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Short sem is going to end soon
Today is already week 6 of my short trimester. Which means this short trimester is going to end in one more week and that's the time we will have our study break.
Although this short trimester I will sit for 2 final only but this 2 subject is quite hard and difficult for me as I haven't face this subject before and be honest, I am not very interested for one of this 2 subject as well. I am not saying this subject is bad but I am not interested at it. However, I still have to force myself to study it and that's why I feel very stress in this trimester.
My final exam will start on 16 and 23 of December which means that after 23 of December I will take a break and I hope I can cerebrate Christmas's Eve and Christmas in Kampar with my friends because after I go back to hometown I think I cannot cerebrate This festival because my parent doesn't like to cerebrate it. So I hope can cerebrate in Kampar with all my fellow friends. Haha.
Yesterday while I have my breakfast with my friends, One of my friend start to discuss about love and we all are attracted to this topic. Carlos then start to act like a lecturer and give us lecture about love. Haha. I feel quite interested in it but I think I am not mature enough so some I can't fully understand. After that, we all want to go back already but Carlos and YY still discuss about that topic. So we all have to wait for them to finish. However, what Carlos say is very meaningful. He got the potential to become a lecturer. I remember one thing that he say I agree the most, he say that if you want to breaking up with your boy/girlfriend. Please do not say that "you can find a better one" as reason, for outsiders, they will feel this sentences is like consolation but for them, this sentences will hurt them much more deeper.
If now I told my girlfriend that from now on, I will only treat you very good, will only dote you. For everything I promise and every words I say I will fulfill it no matter how. I won't lie to you, won't scold you and must take care of you. When you being bully, I must protect you. When you are happy, I have to happy with you. When you are unhappy, I have to make you happy. In my heart, I will love you for the eternity.
Should I say it out or should I hold back first?
Although this short trimester I will sit for 2 final only but this 2 subject is quite hard and difficult for me as I haven't face this subject before and be honest, I am not very interested for one of this 2 subject as well. I am not saying this subject is bad but I am not interested at it. However, I still have to force myself to study it and that's why I feel very stress in this trimester.
My final exam will start on 16 and 23 of December which means that after 23 of December I will take a break and I hope I can cerebrate Christmas's Eve and Christmas in Kampar with my friends because after I go back to hometown I think I cannot cerebrate This festival because my parent doesn't like to cerebrate it. So I hope can cerebrate in Kampar with all my fellow friends. Haha.
Yesterday while I have my breakfast with my friends, One of my friend start to discuss about love and we all are attracted to this topic. Carlos then start to act like a lecturer and give us lecture about love. Haha. I feel quite interested in it but I think I am not mature enough so some I can't fully understand. After that, we all want to go back already but Carlos and YY still discuss about that topic. So we all have to wait for them to finish. However, what Carlos say is very meaningful. He got the potential to become a lecturer. I remember one thing that he say I agree the most, he say that if you want to breaking up with your boy/girlfriend. Please do not say that "you can find a better one" as reason, for outsiders, they will feel this sentences is like consolation but for them, this sentences will hurt them much more deeper.
If now I told my girlfriend that from now on, I will only treat you very good, will only dote you. For everything I promise and every words I say I will fulfill it no matter how. I won't lie to you, won't scold you and must take care of you. When you being bully, I must protect you. When you are happy, I have to happy with you. When you are unhappy, I have to make you happy. In my heart, I will love you for the eternity.
Should I say it out or should I hold back first?
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Mid term exam is coming again
It's been a long period I have not update my blog. This is because I am quite busy and also a little bit lazy to update it. Haha.
The mid term for my year1 trimester2 will be held on Wednesday (11-11-09) and I will be sitting for 2 mid term exam on the same day and between the two mid term exam I have only 1 hour rest. It make me feel very stress because I have set my target quite high for this trimester. Another problem is this 2 subjects seem not related to the course I take and this is the first time I facing these 2 subjects. One is human resource and organization and another one is interpersonal communication. Right now I have already revise these 2 subjects but the problem is although I have revise it, I still feel that my brain is empty and after I memorize the things of another chapter I will forgot the things I memorize in the previous chapter. I wonder if this is normal or I am the only one will feel like this.
Other than the mid term. during these few weeks I can say that nearly everyday will rain in the afternoon or evening and will continue rain until mid night. I like rain because it can let me feel cooler but it also cause some problems to me. I doesn't like it rains during the time I want to go to school and the time I on the way back to hostel. There is one time where I go to school in the rain and make my clothes wet and I don't care about it and straightly go and attend the class. In the 1 hour stay in the lecture room with all the cold air blowing at me. I can say that it is very suffer and like being torturing by the air-cond.
I hope that I can do well in the mid term and I will believe myself that I can do it.
Best wishes to my friends who are going to sit for SPM and also other exam.
Best wishes to our EI lecturer Mr. Sebastian who is sitting for his viva.
The mid term for my year1 trimester2 will be held on Wednesday (11-11-09) and I will be sitting for 2 mid term exam on the same day and between the two mid term exam I have only 1 hour rest. It make me feel very stress because I have set my target quite high for this trimester. Another problem is this 2 subjects seem not related to the course I take and this is the first time I facing these 2 subjects. One is human resource and organization and another one is interpersonal communication. Right now I have already revise these 2 subjects but the problem is although I have revise it, I still feel that my brain is empty and after I memorize the things of another chapter I will forgot the things I memorize in the previous chapter. I wonder if this is normal or I am the only one will feel like this.
Other than the mid term. during these few weeks I can say that nearly everyday will rain in the afternoon or evening and will continue rain until mid night. I like rain because it can let me feel cooler but it also cause some problems to me. I doesn't like it rains during the time I want to go to school and the time I on the way back to hostel. There is one time where I go to school in the rain and make my clothes wet and I don't care about it and straightly go and attend the class. In the 1 hour stay in the lecture room with all the cold air blowing at me. I can say that it is very suffer and like being torturing by the air-cond.
I hope that I can do well in the mid term and I will believe myself that I can do it.
Best wishes to my friends who are going to sit for SPM and also other exam.
Best wishes to our EI lecturer Mr. Sebastian who is sitting for his viva.
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