A new beginning – Year 2

Now is my 2nd week of my year 2, at last I am able to proceed to my year 2 without much obstacles. hahaha. All thanks to my fellow friends, without you all, I think it is hard because you help me a lot. ^^

Although it is happy to be in year 2 but I also see some reality because some of my friends are unable to proceed and they are either change course or under probation. So, I send my best wishes for them.

However, year 2 doesn’t means can relax. Year 2 means must work 2 times harder than year 1 because the subjects are getting tougher and more specific than year 1. That’s why year 2 must do double work. From last week until now, I can say that the subjects are not easy to master it because it is wider and more specific. I will try my best to master it so I can push my CGPA to my target. Same wishes to all my friends, gambateh in your studies. XD

My third trimester break

It is my 3rd trimester break, haha, finally my exam for this trimester has ended.

However, during the final exam period, I can feel that some of my friends change to another person who is only care about themselves and become selfish. I just feel that they taking the final exam more than friendship and other things.

However, I am happy because I still have some friends who is still remain as what they are. I appreciate that I can have this kind of friend.

Now is the time for me to rest but I started to feel bored because during the first few day of my break, I just stay at home and got nothing to do and some more I don't have transportation to go anywhere. However, I will take this break to let my body recover and take enough rest. So that I can have enough energy in order to facing the beginning of next trimester which is my Year 2 Trimester 1.

I wish all my friends can have a happy and healthy break. Haha 

Love that hurt

When the time you send me to told me that you have think deeply and decide to break up, I've got nothing that I can do but to accept it.

When the feeling of love start to fade away, that is the time we are being tested and both of us were unable to go trough it. It's my fault, I was unable to fulfill your need and request. When I want to say something I just don't know how to express it, maybe all of this is caused by me.

After break up, I was thinking a lot of things. I just can't forget what you say. I remember the time that we say we love each other, we make promises. In the end, all of it were just our imagination, without any reality. Maybe that is the problem will occur for long distance love. I also remember that you want me to promise that I have to sleep early, I have to release stress, I have to sms you when I go or back from school, and etc. But now, I just feel empty, my heart was empty, all left is just like needle that stab into my heart. The sweeter we are the more I hurt now.

The luckiest thing is that I can be your boyfriend, the worst thing is our relationship cannot last longer. I understand waiting is a suffering process, even though I say don't give up, but what does it can represent? Maybe less suffer will be better. If we love each other but many problems occur, I will choose to give up because it is the fastest and easiest way.

Now I started to understand, when loving someone, it doesn't need to have her repay, when I see you happy and enjoy, I would be your guardian and protect you silently. If I did not agree with you that time, both of us will be more suffer.

If we break up, maybe both of us will have happiness.

Is it wrong to have an interests?

Is it wrong if I have an extra interests? 

Why they disagree with me when I say I want to learn to play violin and want to buy one violin? I just told them I will learn from friend then they straightly say I will not learn anythings from a friend. Do they means I am stupid or my friend don't know how to teach? 

When I don't have this interest and just know play computer games or surfing the net that time, they keep on urging me to have other type of interest instead of sitting in front of computer. Now I want to have playing violin as my interest then they keep on disagree with me. What should I do?

Until now, I don't know whether I should continue with my interests or just give it up. In my heart, I really want to learn to play violin since I feel that violin match my style. Can anyone suggest what should I do?

Besides that, these few weeks until the end of this semester I am quite busy since got a lot of test to study. However, I will try my best. 

Why couple can be so sweet but

Sometimes I feel why couple can be so sweet but will break suddenly while some couple always quarrel but still can together.

Is it true that the more you quarrel, the deeper you can understand each other while sweet couple usually there is one party who only act like sweet only. So it break at last? Is love really that fragile?

There was an video say that we will meet 3 kinds of people. One is the person you love but him/her don't love you. The second type of person is you don't love but he/she love you. The third kind of people is neither you or him/her can say loving each other or not but just feel both of you appear in the right time. The 3rd kind is where mostly will lead to wedding. It is very meaningful.

Anyway, I wish all couple, please appreciate the other part.