Am I not mature enough?

Around this 2 weeks, I keep on thinking of some question and problem I facing. I think that I am not mature yet.

After being a chairman in handling one of the event, I felt that I need to be more confident and be more mature in making decision. At the beginning, I think that it is not that hard but after taking this position, I feel that it formed pressure on me. Every-time thinking how to improve this and that, how to solve this and that. One of my major weakness is in making decision because when I want to make any decision, I need to think the people around me, will they object my decision, will this decision make anyone unhappy and etc. This make me not confident enough in making decision. So, I'll need lot of opinion before making a decision, even is not a big decision though.

Besides that, I think some of my friend are able to see that actually I am quite childish from my speaking, action and etc. This may due to the friends I mix with during secondary school. I admit during secondary school, I make a lot of childish jokes and action with friends. I have no choice on that time, because I change from different school and in my mind at that time, I only think that if want to become friend, I have to join them. This make my speaking and action now is still like that time. After some days of thinking the way to overcome this problem, I've make a decision that I will not speak any foul language except some mild one from now on and I will control my action not to be that childish. I do really hope I can make it.

The third problem is I cannot control my emotion or mood. Every-time, I just feel like my emotion is control by others.Until now, I still haven't figure a way to prevent control by my mood but is control my mood by me.

For LL-LZ, its my pleasure to meet you all. At the beginning of my uni life, its been a fear for me for not making any close friend. But luckily have you all make me feel that the friendship among us. Thanks

However, I am happy that some of my friends actually point out what is my weakness and things that I need to change. Thank you you all.

For you, its been a glad moment since we are together, you do really change me a lot, you make me know a lot of things, you make me become more mature than before and you teach me what is caring, loving, and etc. You are the gift to me and I hope I am also a pleasure gift to you. ^^