Friday, August 17, 2012

无形的压力

等了那么多个月,总算没有白费。
虽然只是做一个RA,这样至少有更高的机会读master。
现在住处和交通都没问题了,可是无形的压力却开始形成。
每当亲戚知道自己做RA时,都说很不错很不赖。
可是我一个月扣掉EPF那些,所得到的才一千两百出。
家人虽然给了我一辆车。可是费用完全要靠自己。
想一想,在PJ一个人,家人没有给所谓的financial support。
房租加泊车位加水电,上网的费用都要五百出。
车油一个月给它一百出。
薪水的一半已经没有了。
再扣掉生活费,想要存钱真的接近不可能。
还有就是有时还要载妹妹去买东西那些。
真的不懂我可以撑得住吗。
现在还没开工,心里那股恐惧感真的一直在增加,那股无形的压力真的不懂如何释放。
也不懂向谁倾诉,也许会有人叫我一而再地商量,可是我家人的性格却。。。。。。

真想乐观看待此事,可是现实的残酷真的令我开始止步


Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Study or Work?

These few days keep on getting calls from different company and offering me jobs. What I can say is all is full time and contract based. These reality temptation is shaking my will to go for further study. Many relatives and friends around me telling me that if I choose to work, the chances to go for further study is getting dimmer and dimmer because once you go for work, its a tough challenges for me to resign and go for further study due to money/financial reason.

Want to find part time but mostly is sales related part time and now keep getting job offering from companies. I really want to go for further study but no reply from potential supervisor. I am really afraid the opportunity to accept the job offering will gone and felt regret that I didn't take the offer at the first place.

I now really in dilemma. Continue wait for master or take that offer? I am totally lost in this junction.

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

One month

Another trip with my family, its been 3 years plus that I didn't go for any trip with my family. Although this trip is random but the date is exactly one month from the day I go to the same place with my "ji mui" - Penang. Haha.

1st location - queensbay. It takes me some time before can find the parking entrance to the shopping mall. Haha. Once step in the shopping mall, the memory with friends that play at here is reappear in my mind. This trip, only able to meet Saw Yi. Although just be apart for 1 month but we like apart for some months already, the topic can chat is so much until we almost forgot how long we have chat. Thanks to the phone, although some of my friend cannot come for a meet up but still able to chat via phone. Although its just a meet up but my heart is feel warm. ^^ After that, go for a walk at the seashore by myself, what can I say is relax, my family member didn't like the smell of the sea. But for me, this smell can only get from the seashore but not other place, I also feel that I really like sea so much. Haha. So far, the only thing I don't like is the super jam at the Georgetown. Anyway, still need to adapt to it as need to study and work at this island in the future.

Day 2, early in the morning waked by the heavy rain. Be honest, its my first time to see such a heavy rain in Penang and the views of the sea in the rain is so much different. Now, thanks to the rain, I am now shivering and freezing while typing this entry.

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

你觉得吗?

今天看facebook时读到一个不错的短文:


你覺不覺得
這一畢業
就是一輩子

你有沒有覺得
身邊這些忙碌的同學
以後就再也見不到了

你有沒有覺得
這個夏天過去了
就再也不會回來了

你有沒有覺得
領到畢業證書的那天
就是結束學生生涯的那天

你有沒有覺得
這次一關熟悉的宿舍門
就再也不會再打開了

你有沒有覺得
也許下次回到學校
這裡已經變得
不是記憶中的樣子了

你有沒有覺得
再也不會有一群陪着你買衣服
談論形形色色的男男女女

你有沒有覺得
再也不會回到那個熟悉
每件商品價格的小商店了

你有沒有覺得
再也不會有人罵著你笨
你也會開懷大笑了

你有沒有覺得
那熟悉的足球場
那群熟悉的夥伴
以後都不會路過了

你有沒有覺得
那痛恨的考試
再也不會糾結着
你的每個寒冬酷暑了

你有沒有覺得
那思念的人
有可能就再也見不到了

你有沒有覺得
這你罵了幾年的地方
卻是你最後懷念的地方

你有沒有覺得
這裡的
每一條小徑
每一條走廊
都有着屬於你的故事

你有沒有覺得
這裡的每一個食堂
都有你恨的和愛的菜

你有沒有記得
這個你踏上社會
最後的一個平台

你有沒有覺得
這一分別
幾年的恩恩怨怨
歡樂笑臉都過去了

你有沒有覺得
這一分別
那些牌搭子
那些社團學生會團總支的人
都不會繼續一起開會演節目了

你有沒有覺得
這一分別
以後的天南海北
就都有曾經相識多年的朋友了

你有沒有覺得
這一分別
就是一輩子不見了

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Missing You

My buddies, I missed you all! I really missed you all. Those days after Penang trip was a hard time for me. During these day, I keep making present for you all and my mind keep on recalling back what we've done together.

Maybe some people will say I am not mature, afraid and refuse to get out from the past. Yet, I still that nostalgia. Yeah, I know. Although its hard to get out from the memory but I still need to get out from it and look forward.

At this moment, I am trying to convert the happiest moment with you all to be my motivation force to push me, to support me and etc.. If I can do it, I trust you all also can do it, right? Hwaiting!!!