Pressurize

Previous semester: Week 1, aiya, go play play first lar, still got a lot of time one.
This semester: Week 1, what the?!?!?! So many assignments and presentations yet have 1 mid term at week 3. Some more still have the FYP which I worry the most. In campus, I try to put maximum concentration so that I won't make myself so stress. But, when free and feel like nothing to do, my brain started to think of those things again and again.

I was wondering why some people can so steady until can do almost the last minute. Do they so tolerate to the pressure? For me, first, I really dislike last minute work and maybe this is the reason that make me why I feel so stress till like hard to breath.

But luckily I still have my close friends and you to accompany me. I really like and appreciate the moment we all are together playing, eating, chatting. I cannot describe how happy am I at that time. ^^ Although we will have chances like this for around 6 months, but I hope we will never lost contact and can visit each other sometimes. Haha

Chinese entry - 害怕回到从前

从上次写华语日志到现在应该有三年了吧。难怪打起华语字好像有点生疏。

最近心情也和现在的气候产生共鸣，变得低沉。做起事情来都没什么劲。

昨天听电台时听到DJ说现在有一种病成为“群体依赖症”，听着听着发现自己有类似的症状。过后就自己在想是不是太过于依赖朋友，甚至害怕自己会给朋友带来困扰而遭到讨厌。

其实我承认我是蛮依赖友谊，可能是因为从小就被灌输读书，考试等等的东西。从小学到中学我都是被很多人说我很安静，也很少朋友晚上叫我出去因为他们知道我的家人都不会给的。那段时期我真的觉得很孤单，看到朋友玩得很开心而自己却在家里无所事事。那种感觉真的很无助/无奈。可能是那时开始对友谊更加珍惜和依赖。

上了大学，终于摆脱被家人的约束。我开始改变我自己，把自己变得开朗，乐观等等。对友谊更加珍惜，也尽量和朋友混在一起，想尽量认识更多朋友。有时朋友会问我为什么周末都不要回家，我只能笑笑说不得空，其实是不想在家被约束，在这里我可以和朋友一起运动，吃饭，喝茶等等。在家里，其他人都各做各的，想全家人一起坐下来谈天的时刻都没有，想出去可是没有车用，只能呆在房间上网，发呆。。。。。。

可是从昨天开始我发现自己好像太过于依赖朋友，而开始害怕因为这样而失去朋友。可是我已经对一个人的生活方式有恐惧感了。现在不懂有什么两全其美的方法。

我的朋友们，如果我对你们造成困扰时记得告诉我，我不想失去你们才后悔。

Cerebration for us

25/6/2011 till 26/6/2011 can consider as one of my happiest day and also another step for me. Its my first time go KL alone and stay at there for a night which I've never try this before. The reason I happy is that I finally can fulfill what I've promise to you that cerebrate our anniversary together. ^^

25/6/2011

Thanks to my course mate that able to fetch me to ktm station by this day. Haha. After go into the train and sit down. I feel weird because I sit at the wrong seat. Ticket say Coach 1A I sit at 1B, haha, luckily the girl beside me didn't say anything. So I act as I don't know that I sit at the wrong seat until reach my destination. The journey is not very good as the train stop for a few times on the middle of the track. The reason is traffic jam (I am serious). Anyway, I also feel relief that I reach my destination by 10 minutes late only. 1st stage complete. Next, I go with my girlfriend and her friend to Times Square. At first we all plan to take the monorail, when we walk to the station, all the screen showing a sentence :"Our service is having technical issue, delay is expected, sorry for inconvenience." =.=|| No choice, then we go and take taxi, we though we will reach times square soon. Suddenly, the driver say the road close and he just drop us somewhere else and charge us for RM15. WTH!!!. What we do next is go take another rapid kl go to next stop and take monorail to times square. The monorail is the one that having technical problem. It took us more than 2 hours from KL sentral to Times Square and the most important thing is we all hungry like ****. When we reach Times Square then we rush for any food. But the lunch we all have is not nice at all. Some more 1 set cost us RM18. =.=. Sweat again. Then we shopping from Times Square to Lowyat then to Sungei Wang (Of course we all like do a lot of crazy things in between). Hahaha. Next, we all have our dinner at T-bowl. It can say give me a very deep impression as all food is in one toilet bowl and the ice cream is really like a pile of ****.

After that we heading back to hostel and I become a parasite that stick to my girl friend's friend room for a night. After take bath, we all go and play monopoly deal. As me and one of her friend completely don't know how to play and they all keep on teaching and lastly become they're playing more than we're. Haha.

26/6/2011

Its been a cold night as the air-cond in the hostel temperature can't set. One thing very weird is the hostel got a smell that I only smell in a hotel. Its completely the same smell. After take my bath, we all gather at group floor and heading to the place we having our dinner - Subway. Its the first time I being forced to eat so much vegetables in the morning as more than 50% of the bread is vegetables. However, the vegetables is so fresh that I start to love it. XDD. After we chit chat for almost 1 hour+, her friend go back to hostel and both of us go to KL sentral as she want to accompany me till I depart. (I like it ^^) When reach Kl Sentral, both of us sharing one cup of Chocolate Chip Cream (If not wrong) at starbucks and sit until almost the time for me to get on the train. After a kiss Goodbye and I left KL. XD

I can say that the trip is tiring but happy. Dear, I am happy and not regret to woo you that time. I love you. ^^

30/5/2011

The first day of my final year. Well, today when I first come to school, what I see is a lot of student wearing utar T-shirt hanging around outside of lecture hall and I wonder why they don't just go inside the lecture hall and wait. This is the same phenomenon when I am still year 1 sem 1, completely freshmen and like feeling lost because I just don't know want to go where. This also make me think that time passes so fast and now I am already from a freshmen becoming a final year student.

Today first lecture, Organizational behavior. What I can say is I don't really know what she is teaching about. It seem like touching some of interpersonal communication and some relating of human resources. Now I am still wondering, is this subject a 'rojak' of both previous subject that I took.One thing I like is that the lecturer saying that this subject is mainly on critical thinking which means that I can elaborate the answer as much as I can since the past year paper showing that one sub-question carry around 16 marks, wahahaha.

Another thing is the assignment group that I join for this subject is completely new which I haven't do assignment with them before. Don't know what kind of spark will emerged when the time we doing the assignment. Anyway, I hope we can cooperate well and let's complete the assignment nicely. XD

After the tutorial, I got quite a number of task to do. First, go DSA and book the bus and then from block C go until block F to make the payment at finance and then go back to block C again to give the receipt to the officer. After that, rush back to my room and transfer the booking deposit to High 5. Guess what, now my account nearly 'dried up'. Wednesday sure go and ask people to pay rm20 to me. If not, I need to eat 'north-east wind' already. T_T

I think I will end this entry here as my stomach is telling me is the time to have dinner with friend. What I can say about today is quite happy and just feel like we all are reunion again although we have just didn't see each other for 2 weeks. Haha

Wesak Day

I know this day for those who are studying primary or secondary school and those who are working will be happy since today is a holiday. Hahaha! It doesn't affect me since I am still enjoying my sem break. Wakakaka!

Wesak day, for me is just same as usual - staying at home with nothing to do. Be honest, from the day I born until now I really don't know what kind of cerebration will held during Wesak Day as this day I will only stay inside house. Don't know why will like this, maybe this is the type of my family culture. Sobsob.

Anywhere, instead of just sitting inside my room. I will do something meaningful - find the information regarding this festival. Okay ladies and gentlemen, let's start our lesson from wikipedia XDD

The decision to agree to celebrate the Vesākha as the Buddha’s birthday was formalized at the first Conference of the World Fellowship of Buddhists held in Sri Lanka in 1950, although festivals at this time in the Buddhist world are a centuries-old tradition. The Resolution that was adopted at the World Conference reads as follows:

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That this Conference of the World Fellowship of Buddhists, while recording its appreciation of the gracious act of His Majesty, the Maharaja of Nepal in making the full-moon day of Vesak a Public Holiday in Nepal, earnestly requests the Heads of Governments of all countries in which large or small number of Buddhists are to be found, to take steps to make the full-moon day in the month of May a Public Holiday in honour of the Buddha, who is universally acclaimed as one of the greatest benefactors of Humanity.

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On Vesākha Day, Buddhists all over the world commemorate events of significance to Buddhists of all traditions: The birth, enlightenment and the passing away of Gautama Buddha. As Buddhism spread from India it was assimilated into many foreign cultures, and consequently Vesākha is celebrated in many different ways all over the world.

Haha, if want any further information please go and google it. 

At last, I wish everyone can have an enjoyable and peaceful Wesak Day. ^^